Ups and Downs!

The last week of April and the first two weeks of May were the worse weeks this year. I am not sure what exactly was happening but I have been going through a lot of ups and downs for some reasons.

I can’t really mention everything in details, all I can say is that my mood was not stable at all. If something good happens, I prepare myself for A BIG SHOCK and it always happen. Due to all that, by the first week of May I felt sick and stayed at home to rest. Besides, I thought it was a good idea to stay at home and study for that economic exam. Now, looking back at it, I wish if I went to the campus that day even if I was DYING!

When that exam started, I got another unexpected shock! I completely did not know the answer of the first question which was counted 20% from the whole grade. What made it worse is that afterwards I discovered something…the teacher explained that question in class in the day I was absent! The thing is that I went to see my teacher twice before one day of the exam but I did not find him.

When I thought that things won’t get any worse that day, something else happened. I went to get my grades from my Environmental science teacher. I was full of confident, that I won’t get less than a B! I was wrong again…I got the SHOCK of my life knowing how BAD my grade was! I did not see that one coming at all!! I studied so hard for that exam and got such a shameful mark! Lately, it always happen, the harder I study, the fewer grades I get…maybe I should not be studying TOO MUCH! But if I don’t study like that…I am afraid that I would fail or won’t get good grades….

What a life I am living! When I thought that the ups and downs are decreasing, another thing happens. Like 2 days ago, I was not allowed to go help in the CEPA Day which I was really looking forward to. I even attended the sessions for CEPA Helpers, I was so excited but….I could not make it. I really felt so unhappy about it but there was nothing I could do about it.