Lonelinee Knows me by Name

3 more days to go and I will be back on campus. I really cant wait to be there because now this holiday became unbearable! It feels so empty! There is no one around and no one to stay up with me the whole night. My brother M started his second semester in the AUS last week, my little brother A started the second semester as well, dad is busy as always, granny not in the mood most of the time….

I remember when this holiday first started it was not as boring as now! Waking up in the morning and cooking lunch for the family when I am in the mood. During that, A and M discuss the latest video games and search for more on the internet. M watching Naruto the whole day, A looking for football news…he is such a huge football fan…dad coming back from work and we all have a chat about university, school…etc and granny join us with her complaining most of the time. me watching dramas and making my cousin goes so crazy over them…my other cousin tease me about how messing my hair is and my younger cousin gives me a hard time. At night, my bros cook something before a movie they plan to watch or to play a video game while me still watching dramas ….all that was happening in the beginning of this break but now it’s a different story.

Now its just so empty, its so boring to have a holiday by your own. Everyone went to schools and I am left at home. Don’t see much of my family and if I do….there is not much to say. Everyone is busy with their own stuff. I walk every night, and in the dark while feeling the cold breeze…you would feel how lonely life can be sometimes. I only get sympathy from the stars, sometimes when they wink, I feel like they are crying over me! Crying over the loneliness that surrounds me…at those times I feel like parts of the song “Loneliness knows by name” for Westlife speaks about me

Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once,
And its been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through
And it will never be ignored
Why? Why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thought in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make achieve of me
Why? Why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

Life is more
Like there would be a vacant space
The cried out tears
And the never ending maze
I found what loneliness provide
A straight within
Knowing I will find